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I'm thirsty, I'm thirsty. 
cats in the kitchen - so no entry.

haha. you just read the first 2 lines of a song that I'm writing titled 'DYING OF THIRST'. 
yah right. hahaha. 
but really, I'm thirsty.

you know, I finally found a game that I really enjoy playing and put it into the PSP but the bloody game just keeps on repeating itself when it reaches a certain point in the game. it's Pirates of the Caribbean by the way. when Jack Sparrow is trapped on a suspended bridge, the game just rewinds itself and I have to play it from the start of the chapter until I reach the bridge AGAIN. after that, the same thing happens. so when I reach the bridge, it's pretty much Game Over for me. it sucks. why do things have to be that way? when you finally find something you like, there's bound to be something wrong with it. don't tell me 'shit happens'. I hate that phrase.

my father's coming home next week. so yay, my money gets to collect dust for a week. hahaha.
and do you know that one of fadilah's dumbass cats fell from the 6th storey? yah, UNFORTUNATELY it survived. maybe it has nine lives. now if only it'd fall for another 8 times. HAHAHAHAHA. its leg is in a cast now. I don't know whether to laugh or to ... laugh until I cry. and ohhhhhh, fadilah cried because she thought it was dead. HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA. 

I'm cruel, I know.

I know I haven't been updating regularly but I've been and still am busy with ... work. I think? It's not actually work that keeps me away from the computer but when I get home from work, I just want to sleep forever. seriously. and it sucks that LJ doesn't allow its users to upload their pictures directly from here unless they have an upgraded account. it makes me want to switch to blogger but what the hell. no one reads my blog i think.

the bloody cat escaped from the bloody kitchen, ran towards me, I jumped and stoodon the bloody chair while the bloody cat was sitting under the bloody chair and I acidentally made my bloody psp drop to the bloody floor while trying to bloody escape from the cat! fucking feline! god, I've never hated it more!

you know, looking at where I am right now, I wouldn't change it for the world.
and please don't be dumb and take what I just said in its literal meaning because where I am right now, is in my mother's room sitting cross legged on a chair. I meant, the life that I'm living right now. the friends that I have (both at work and the ones that have stuck with me since day 1), the work, the life at home (minus the cats) and just the fact that I can do anything I want to without anyone stopping me (except get a tattoo. it's not my fault that watching Miami Ink makes you want to get one).

I've been single for a few months now and I never thought I'd get through  the tough times, but I guess I did. how could I not? friends were always there for me. I always had someone to turn to. I don't need to be in a relationship to be happy (not that I was even happy when I was in a relationship). I want to live life like this. do what I want, anytime, anywhere.

I wanna cycle. I wanna play badminton. I wanna buy new spectacles till I get the perfect one (I just bought one the other day. haha) and suddenly, I want to go out with friends I've never gone out before. you know how much I hate going out right? let alone go out with new people.

no, I'm not on bloody drugs okay,. I think this, right now, is me being genuinely happy. and what I just said, I've never said it before eversince I came out of my mum.

plus, someone made me happy today. and I promise you this has nothing to do with me being genuinely happy. this, 'someone making me happy' thing is a BONUS. hahahahahhahahaha. hahahahhahahaha. okay enough before one of you drags me to woodbridge.

anyway, on a different note, I'm pretty bummed that my father said that it wouldn't be safe if my brother and I were to join him in Medan. something about the police checking up on him. and someone (either my brother or sister) said that it was because my father's boss escaped from jail (WTF). i don't think it's true lah, the part about escaping from jail. what the hell. it was possibly along that line but I'm sure he didn't escape from jail. jerk of a boss. I was really looking forward to going there. but guess what? I'm not as disappointed as I should be since the 'someone making me happy' thing has cushioned the disappointment. haha. I'm not even disappointed at all lah. maybe because it means that I'll still be here when my next paycheque comes.and with that cheque, comes a new bicycle. then I can go cycle whenever & wherever I want. HAHAHAHAHA.

don't you just hate me when I'm happy? I don't seem to make sense.